It's been awhile......

So, it's been awhile since i was last on here and quite frankly, it's not that i was too busy to get here, i just really didn't feel like it. Don't get me wrong, i have been busy, but i've never been one who can write when i don't feel like it. I have to feel like writing or i litterally can't muster up words that make any kind of sense. Now, it's been so long i can't hardly figure where to start. Hmmmmmmm

Well, next Friday is a big day for me. Like, make it or break it kinda big. Well, atleast i feel as though it could be. Next Friday is the heART of Friendship art auction, and while it's not that big of deal, it's a big deal to me. I entered one of my photographs and while i don't expect it to go for hundreds of dollars, i will be crushed if it goes for next to nothing. I view my photography as an extension of myself, so for no one to be interested in it, to me, says that i must not be as good as what i have been told. Stupid, i know. But, that's how i roll. LOL
This past weekend, we (me, Husband, Bitty, married friends plus their 4 kids) attended The March for Babies team captain kick-off held at our local Texas Roadhouse. Kinda pointless for me, but my friend is new to the March for Babies so i thought we ought to attend. I'm glad we did, it was quite fun. Not to mention, who wouldn't jump at the chance for free, yes i said FREE Texas Roadhouse food. After last years march and the hassle i had with my team, i had pretty much given up on ever doing it again. But, after talking to said friend and realizing that i couldn't let down millions of babies. So, i have taken a no holds bar look at it this year. I put on my big girl panties and decided the other members will either do what's asked of them, or just simply not be a part of my team. And that's fine with me. I don't hold it against them, after all, it wasn't their daughter born 11 weeks early. Although i must say, trying to fundraise in this economy is enough to make anyone want to throw in the towel.
I've also decided to plan a baby shower for above mentioned friend. She is pregnant with her 5th child, which is believed to be a girl. Which, if i might add, is udderly awesome since her other 4 children are boys. Personally, i believe the woman should receive mother of the century for being a SAHM of 4 boys. Anyway, after telling me that no one in her family had planned to throw her a shower, i stepped up to the plate. What kind of friend would i be had i not. It's proving to test me though. But, i'll manage!
Speaking of pregnant friends, quite alot of my friends are either pregnant right now or just had a baby. Talk about feeling the urge to make another baby. LOL So, back i go with my internal struggle, giving Bitty a sibling versus risking the life of another baby to do so. For some reason, most people think i'm crazy for that. I, however, can justify it 100%. It really irritates me when people, people who don't bother to stop and think, blurt out how i NEED to have another child, because after all, we all know how only children are. WHAT THE F*#K. Please people, don't lump all only children together. My daughter plays just fine with other children, she knows what sharing is and not only that, she does it. She's not spoiled and does not get whatever she wants. And for that matter, I am an only child and take severe affense to that notion. I share just fine. I wish it was just that easy, to just have another child. For some of us, there are things that get in the way. Things more important then making sure my child isn't an only child.