Um, yeah.....

So....yesterday was the Art auction and let me just say, my photo.......DID AWESOME. The heART of Friendship foundation recieved $180 for, what basically is a black and white photo of a door.But, honestly, i seem kinda numb to it. I suppose other things have been plagueing my mind. Like, the fact that i'm 29 and, what in my heart i believe, starting menopause. Yay. Yeah, i know, i should go to the doctor. But, i don't want to. I don't want someone, someone who doesn't know me, someone who doesn't know my life, my story, my dreams, to tell me that at 29, it's no longer MY choice to have another child. `Cause, ya know, i already blame myself and my body for failing to carry Bitty for 40 weeks. Now, it seems to want to say, HAHAHA, you don't even get the chance to get it right. Stupid girl. Yeah. See how my mind works.