January 27th

January 27th is merely a little over a week away. It's a Thursday. It's the day after my BIL birthday. It's the same day as some of my friends. It's also the day i should be celebrating Bitty's 3rd birthday. January 27th always seems to put things in perspective for me. I know my daughter was 11 weeks early, i'm not retarded. But to think that we celebrated her birthday on November 11th, THAT makes me realize exactly how long 11 weeks is. It always seems to make me a little sad too.

My ode to snow.....

Oh snow, how i love thee, let me count the ways. I love your pretty sparkle when the light shines on you at night. I love peaceful quiet you bring to a bustling world. I love the way you cling on the trees, almost as if you don't ever want to leave. I love the soft crunch you make under my shoes and the way you seem to chase away my winter blues. I love to take pictures of you and watch as the wind makes you move. I love the way you taste and how you lay with such grace. The size of your flakes, the smell in the air, i even love what you do to my hair.

I'm NOT a quitter!

I'm not a quitter. I'm just down right not the person who just quits something. Even if i hate it, i stick with it. I also HATE losing, but that's a whole nother story. LOL In my previous post, i talked about how New Years resolutions are basically lame and all you end up doing is failing yourself, or not following through with what ever it was you resolved. Every year, I vow to quit smoking. <------dead give away that i surely can't follow through with a resolution. However, this is one instance where i soooooo long to be a quitter. So far, i'm doing pretty good at still smoking. The only differance between this year and the years before, i'm actually keeping track of how much i smoke and making sure to cut that number back every day. And let me tell you, doing it that way versus the good ole "cold turkey" method, is gonna save alot of lives. I'm hoping to be done with cigarettes by no later than the end of the month. Ofcourse, i may weigh 50lbs more, but who cares, atleast i'll be smoke free. LOL I shouldn't lie, i haven't been eating that much, but Fruit Rollups seem to keep the urges at bay sometimes. LOL I hope i can do this, i really, REALLY do. This year's gonna be different, this year, i WILL become a quitter.