This Friday will be Bitty's 4th Due Day. It's the day i was suppose to be scheduled for a c-section. It was suppose to be her birthday. Now, it's just a day. The day she was suppose to be born. She could care less really. LOL But i always get a little sentimental. And as Friday grows closer, the more sappy i feel. In general, it takes very little to get my mind thinking philisophically, for instance; while riding her bike this afternoon she asked me how i wanted her to ride "fast, slow, or normal?" Carefully. That was my answer. I don't care if you go fast or slow, i don't care if you go normally, just be careful. And that one word led me to one conclusion. There's a difference between carefully and carelessly. Duh, right? LOL So, here it is, my letter to Bitty for her 4th due day:
I want you to be carefully careless. Love everyone you know and meet, carelessly. Let everyone you let in, take a piece of you with them when they leave, more than likely, they've already left a piece of themselves with you. Never, under any circumstances, stop questioning everything that you think you know. When you close your mind, you close your heart. Expect nothing short of greatness from yourself and everyone you let close to you, and when they fail to live up to those expectation, as they will without a doubt do, you'll be pissed. But, get over it. Don't hold it over them and don't let it define them or yourself. We are all greater than the sum of our failures, unfortunately some people see only those. Don't be one of those people. Find the good in everyone. Trust me, it's there. If you fail to find it, just keep looking. Sometimes, the good in someone is the lesson you learn when you walk away. Be careless. Just, please be careful. Be careful when you look in the mirror. Because i am certain that the only person who can possibly hurt you the most, is the one that looks back. Be careful when you point your finger and place blame on someone else, rarely are our mistakes a result of someone else. Be careful when looking behind you, you will miss what's always been right in front of you.
